Wordful Wednesday: Why? Just why?

As summer winds down we are trying to cram so much into every single day. I had so many grand ideas of things to post today but my computer died last week and I haven’t gotten back to editing photos yet. Besides the fact that while me and my two incredible kids are busy living, laughing, loving and just being, there are families out there suffering so much.

I just can’t stop thinking about how fortunate we are for what we have. Or how unfortunate and shitty some people have it.

My awesome friend Alex lost her home to arson earlier this summer. This sweet sweet mama and her family lost everything but the clothes on their backs. Thankfully Alex, Scott and Bella are safe and sheltered and looking for a new home. After our house flood and simultaneous miscarriage I thought life would never be the same. But I was astounded by the rallying of our loved ones around us.

And this situation is much the same. Our incredible Crunchy Momma community here in Lansing pulled together and organized clothes, food, toiletries, gas cards, cell phones and toys. Showering Alex with donations within hours. It is inspiring how much we pulled together.

Despite living with family (SO much like our situation) they are living their lives and looking for a home and moving forward. They are sad and still shaken but so very strong. If you want to help the Schroeder family move into their own home check out their YouCaring site HERE.

I’m so proud of how strong Alex has been through all of this. Because what is a mother without strength?

Strength defines Diana Stone. Many of you have read her blog Hormonal Imbalances or followed her pregnancy on Babble. She was one of the first blogs I followed. She encouraged me to write more and helped me through some rough times and always, always took the time to respond to me and send emails and answer my questions.

And now, after losing her twin sons at just over 19 weeks old in May 2012, she is fighting for the life of her 2 week old son Kaden.

All I can even summon right now is the question “Why?”

Why is this happening to her? Why again? Didn’t she suffer enough when she lost her boys?

It’s not fair. It’s bullshit. It makes me angry.

I am not a Christian like Diana. In fact I don’t subscribe to any one form of religion. But I believe in a higher consciousness. A human connection. The power of so many minds and souls focusing on one thing has the ability to make a change. I truly believe that prayer can work.

And so I pray. Begging pleading cries into the universe for this child.

Prayers for this child whose heart isn’t working because of a random virus. Totally undetectable. Totally unpredictable. Totally random. It could have happened to any of our children. But it happened to Diana.

And this is where her incredible strength will be tested to it’s absolute limits. I pray the most for her to have the strength to make the tough calls and to fight for her son no matter what.

She showed that strength when she fought for Preston and Julian. She showed that strength when she went home and went back to mothering her Bella the best way she knew how. And she shows it now, as she pumps every day in hopes of giving her son a few precious drops of liquid gold. As she watches him undergo procedures and tests and tubes and IVs.

I don’t know that we can ever understand why illness and disability strikes one family and not another. Why when it rains it insists on pouring. But I do know that we are damn lucky to have two healthy little girls.

Whatever your faith, or lack there of, please spend a couple moments thinking about this family. They could use all the help they can get.

Or if giving is more your way of showing concern please consider donating to their YouCaring fundraiser HERE. They are out of their home, away from their daughter and without any end in sight for Kaden’s hospital stay. Every penny helps them to stay close to their son and hopefully move the entire family closer to the hospital.

I can’t imagine watching my baby through an isolette. I can’t imagine being hundreds of miles away from my daughter. I can’t imagine not knowing if my baby’s heart was going to give out. It’s devastating just to think about.

Diana, Sam, Bella, Preston, Julian and Kaden. You are all in my heart and I am praying for you each and every day. Hoping for better news for all of you soon.


Books? What are Those?

It’s Thursday and that means linking up with Adventuroo’s Capture the Everyday! This week’s topic? What are you Reading?

It seems like I went from reading 20 books at a time to barely finishing whatever my book club was reading each month and that’s it. And that more often than not has been an audiobook while driving the hour and a half to and from Detroit every ten days or so.

But I have been more inspired to read lately. I miss it. I crave it. But why does it seem like everything I pick up kind of sucks?

There were many much anticipated YA novels (cause usually I really adore them). I Am Number Four, Across the Universe, Matched. They all left me less than impressed. I call it The Hunger Games Effect.

I compare everything, especially series, to The Hunger Games and continually feel disappointed. Seriously. If you haven’t read it you should. It’s our May book club selection.

So when I went down to my old library for book club last night I picked up several books. And not a single YA. Cause maybe I’m disappointed cause I just can’t even remotely relate to vampire teens, fairy tweens or space-traveling young adults. Here’s what I ended up with:

First up? A travel guide to Arizona & The Grand Canyon!! Cause we are leaving for our trip in six days!!! Nuff said.

The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood. Our April book club selection. Cult classic and one I’ve wanted to read for years. I’ve heard it’s disturbing and depressing. No spoilers please.

A Walk with Jane Austen. Cause just about anything having anything to do with Jane Austen makes me happy. The tagline is “A journey into adventure, love and faith” following the life and lore of Jane Austen through England. The author created the blog ‘Jane Austen Quote of the Day’.

And while we’re talking about bloggers…The Pioneer Woman wrote a book?! And it’s a love story?! Whuck?! This is my absolute dream. That my blog leads to a book deal and allows me to do all the things I love in life. Write, rant, takes pictures, brag about my kids and live life on my terms. I am really excited to read this, because she has such a unique voice and a clever way of telling stories.

And then there’s the bin of books for Miss Reading Rainbow in her library bin. And one baking cookbook called Baked for me, cause it has the funniest title ever. Just sayin’.

To be fair. The Glee DVD is for me too ::wink wink::

So…what are you reading? To take a look at other people’s selections or to link up your post click on the Adventuroo button below!

Happy Reading!


Capture the Everyday from Adventuroo


I Won an Award?!

I can hardly believe it but I am so incredibly honored to have won an ‘Honest Scrap’ award from my friend Eliza at Postcards from Parenthood which really means a lot to me.  Not only has Eliza been one of the few blogging Mamas to totally embrace me, but I take pride in the fact that honesty is my one and only policy when it comes to writing this blog.  Thanks Eliza!! 

Being the recipient of this award entitles me not only to pass this on to other bloggers I admire, but to share 10 things about me with you, my faithful readers.

1.  I was a teenage Girl Scout.  Seriously.  Until I was 17.  I’ll have to blog about it some time…
2.  I left my job in December.  4 months is by far the longest I’ve gone without working since I was 13 years old.  
3.  I’ve been a telephone operator, mail clerk, cashier, pizza delivery girl, department store sales girl, hair salon receptionist, production coordinator, film director, vintage clothing store manager, and a library clerk.
4.  Super proud of my all-natural labor with Cedella!  No drugs at all, not even a Tylenol.  From my water breaking to holding my baby took a grand total of 7 hours.
5.  Can still recite almost all of the words to ‘Sixteen Candles’ and ‘Pulp Fiction’.
6.  I collect the following vintage items:  cameras, lamps, souvenir scarves, postcards, biographies, things with JFK on them and baby clothes from the 70’s.
7.  I was married a year ago in the same room where my parents first met.  Then it was a library, now it’s a ballroom.
8.  I once pushed Chaka Khan through Detroit Metro Airport in a wheelchair.  No really, it wasn’t a dream…
9.  I wanted to be an astronaut when I grew up and went to Space Camp 3 times.  Then I discovered shopping and decided to be a fashion designer instead.  Way to switch gears, huh?
10.  If I don’t eat a piece of chocolate in a day I am not a happy camper.  But in case there’s no chocolate in the house ice cream will suffice.  

Now I pass the torch to some of my other blogging sisters…

Teresha at Marlie and Me for being so down to earth and being such a big support and great friend to me since I started blogging.
Metta at365 days: 30+Mommyhood for the honesty and love she pours into each and every blog post.
Diana at Hormonal Imbalances for keeping it very real with all the hard choices she’s having to make.
Mrs. F at As the Forest{e} Grows for talking about everything from sex to church with honesty and humor.
Care at The Exposed Mom for her beautiful photographs that are the epitome of honesty.

I know…it’s supposed to be 10 but these are the only bloggers I know aside from Eliza!